If you're anything like me you hate exercising. You are unhappy with your body yet you can't get off your butt to do anything about it. I also love to eat so dieting is just cruel and it plain sucks. Especially when I have a husband who has hollow legs, can eat whatever he wants and doesn't gain an ounce.
I'll diet for a few weeks and lose a few pounds but then we will have some sort of event or my husband suggests something really yummy to eat and I "fall off the wagon". It's not that I can't resist...I just don't want to. It's not even that I'm hungry...I just want to eat.
I gave birth to beautiful twins just about a year ago and my body has not been the same since. I weigh more, my stomach is flabby and I've become a lazy blob.
I've been thinking for a long time how if I had a personal trainer and a chef I could have the "perfect" body. Well, reality sucks. I will never be in a position to afford these things. That means, I can keep dreaming, keep whining and keep being unhappy or I can do something about it.
I am choosing to do something about it.
Now here is the hard part. I'm a quitter. I admit it. If something is too hard, I'll give up. I won't push through the hard stuff and keep going. (Let me add if it's something that REALLY matters I don't quit but anyway...)
I said to my husband the other night that I was thinking of trying to run. Maybe setting a goal for myself to run a marathon or something. Basically he said I won't do it. I'll start and I'll quit. The sad reality is that he is probably right. But I don't want him to be right.
And that brings us to the purpose of this blog. I want to secretly train myself to be able to run a marathon. It won't be easy. I'm supremely out of shape. I have asthma. I have a bad back. I have bad knees. And while this is all true it's also all the reasons I will use as an excuse to quit. I'm not saying I'll be able to do it. Or even that running is the right thing for me. But I want to try something. I want to succeed at something. And I want to do it without my husband knowing I'm trying so then if I do quit, he won't know.
My plan is to start small and work from there. Wish me luck and keep checking back. We'll see how it goes.